My occupation is about generally desktop publishing and I dislike designing those silly pages for customers. For example they always want big fonts, you can't use thin characters, strange colors.... In short they are damned. I'm just occupied with this for staying alive. Because they even don't understand the benefits of 3D, so my boss. I hate all those things going here. There are lots of hates to talk about but I bored to tell them also. Here, everything works with "winks" Metin. This is reality. You must be someone's someone to achieve. They are not interested in what you're doing. They are just interested in how much they pay. Less money and having more benefit from worker is the best game they play. Leeching! So I don't play... It was working for them when I was young but now I'm more clever. For example my boss doesn't know anything about this scene and he even doesn't know I'm doing all these. He just know I can do 3D graphics but years ago for some time he wanted to sell this stuff free beside some cheap work and I'm done there. So, I no more draw any vertex for their dirty jobs. Think that I'm still using Geforce 4-MX400 64MB at the office and the boss says it's enough. Huh! Also, there are no cool 3D companies here as you think or I just don't know where they are. Of course I would like to work for some cool guys but I don't believe there is one in Turkey. I just see Giraffe once on the net... I think she's mostly in architecture. My aim is not draw buildings for some fat a**es here. Ask the architects in Turkey. Do you think they are satisfied with their job and customer relations. Man, the construction business is very very damned I know. I bet I can't put one more brick onto it. Maybe I would be more comfortable if I work for broadcasting media but they don't give not much money here. I looked for some job around and even a private TV channel could give 800 dollars per month. This is awfully low for the job. And for most cases it's the same in all around the world.... In the end, I'm desperate and waiting for my end. I'm happy of being master of myself.
I think.... I create... I do... just for my pleasure. This is the real fun of living!
